tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38527028575207340752024-03-06T14:15:39.472+08:00Innocence White Reminiscence BlackLong Gone Last Innocence ~ Fateful Haunting ReminiscenceJung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.comBlogger85125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-58610544146941792542011-12-19T02:47:00.000+08:002011-12-19T02:47:06.804+08:00December Rain<br />
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A room of empty spaces</div>
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Echo this loneliness</div>
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A thousand days and nights</div>
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Thoughts of your pretty face</div>
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Like pictures on the wall</div>
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It keeps on running through my mind</div>
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You’re out there</div>
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Packing all your crazy dreams</div>
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In your little backpack</div>
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Trying to leave and be somebody</div>
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On the ground now</div>
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Are all the hopes we used to share</div>
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You’re a challenge now</div>
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This loss is just too hard to bear</div>
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The clear blue sky above me</div>
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Slowly fades away bit by bit</div>
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As those rainclouds come and paint it grey</div>
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It’s way pass 5.40</div>
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And they only thing I need is tonight</div>
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So I can fall asleep and never lie awake...</div>
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Wondering how this life would be without you</div>
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Wasting the time away, figuring out how to start anew</div>
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I think I’ll close that front door today</div>
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Hoping someone good would come knocking one day</div>
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I’ll remember you in this cold December rain</div>
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Wish I could move on someday</div>
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I was too young to know</div>
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What we thought would last</div>
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Would find its way to die someday</div>
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And I used to think it’s forevermore</div>
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When you left your world behind</div>
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To live in mine instead</div>
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For the first time, I thought maybe something beautiful</div>
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Would someday shine on this broken road</div>
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And now it’s gone, I find myself all alone again</div>
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Searching for my way back home</div>
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I think I’ll close that front door today</div>
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Hoping something good would come around here one day</div>
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I’ll remember us in this cold December rain</div>
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And wish this heart of mine would beat once again</div>
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As this lonely day gets darker, as the burning sun sets down</div>
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I’ll take one step at a time, burn and leave our sweet past</div>
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Baby, I wish you all the best, hope you find bliss on your way</div>
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I’ll try my best to make this pain fail to last</div>
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And I think I’ll close that front today</div>
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Hoping someone good would come knocking one day</div>
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I’ll remember you as I’m here, looking for a way</div>
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To keep me sane</div>
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I’ll think close that front door today</div>
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Hoping something good would come around here one day</div>
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I’ll leave the pieces in this pouring December rain</div>
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I’ll take this one chance and pray to God for healing</div>
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Hope I could move one someday</div>
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P/S:</div>
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It's been a very long time since. And truth be told, I haven't been able to write anything new as well. But, knowing that I haven't posted anything since then, I decided to post something tonight. Something that I did last December, which was quite a rainy month. Just like this year's December too, it pours down like there's no end.</div>
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I did remember writing this one exactly at 5.40 in the evening and it's raining so bad at that time. It triggered something in my head, about the idea of rain and December, the month of closure. The month where people try to get over difficult things happening in life throughout the year and hope they could open a new chapter filled with much better memories in the upcoming year. Rain always makes me feel nostalgic and inspires me. And December itself is a very bittersweet month as well. The combination was just perfect. After one whole year, this one is still so relevant to me.</div>
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Though this one is not really related to me in any way and it doesn't bear any of my truth as it's just a story being told, I think some people out there would be able to relate to it in some ways, maybe. (owh yeah, I'm truly sorry if everything in this writing isn't impeccably written, aite >.< )</div>
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<br /></div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-28720967190375931692011-09-20T22:59:00.002+08:002011-09-20T22:59:35.302+08:00Simply Extraordinary<div style="text-align: justify;">
I admit wholeheartedly that I'm not really good at giving anything to anybody. I don't even consider giving anything to anybody most of the times. It's not that I don't want to. It's just that, it is something that you need to put a lot of thoughts into. I'm always a person with so many thoughts, don't get me wrong. But when it comes to something precious to be given to somebody, I usually tell myself to skip it. I would rather watch people around me exchanging gifts and see what they've gotten from one another. Nevertheless, I do believe that no matter what kinds of gifts that people give and take, even if they just a small token of gratitude anyone can find anywhere, they constitute so much meaning to the giver and the receiver. I have a lot of people giving me a lot of things every now and then and I can tell that they come from their deepest and sincerest hearts. The problem is that I don't really have the urge to try giving them something to remember and cherish too as a way to thank them. Other than spoken gratitude and a display of affection, I've got nothing on my plate. Therefore, a few weeks ago, I decided to try doing new things, something that I had never done before. Seeing people giving so much love and support to me, it makes me want to give something back to them in any way possible. I decided to send greeting cards to few friends just before the Eid celebration.</div>
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For the first time in my entire life, I decided to send greeting cards to some lucky friends of mine. It sounds quite childish and very extraordinarily nothing to some hearts. But, I take this one as one very valuable experience that I will never be able to forget. What made me decide to do it was that, I felt like I needed to repay their kindness and openness towards me. I'm always a private guy who don't really share things even to my family members as I like to keep them to myself. But, seeing these great friends of mine opening up to me and nonchalantly letting me in to their world and giving me a time and space to get to know them a little bit better, just overwhelmed me in so many ways I could think of. What made me even more overwhelmed with joy was that, I didn't really get the chance to know some of these friends in the past even though we had already known each other for years. And, we ended up getting to know each other so well in the most unthinkable and random situations possible. </div>
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What I wrote in each card was different. And the feelings I poured down were different in each card as well. I decided to make them worth reading and somewhat reflective as it was my first time. Since I couldn't afford to buy, or even manage to find, bigger cards, I simplified whatever things that I really wanted to say. I went on to write an introductory apology for all the wrongdoings that I had done, the recent memories that we both had that made us closer and what I really thought about them as a person. It took quite a while to complete them all as I was extremely busy with doing all the Eid celebration up to the first few days of Eid itself. The fact that I chose to brainstorm what I really wanted to say caused much delay as well, but I didn't regret my decision. I believed at that time, I needed to be cautious with my thoughts and what I was going to write to my friends as thoughts wrongly interpreted might lead to unwanted misunderstanding. In the middle of that chaotic weeks, I would squeeze it in and spend a few nights completing them little by little. Eventually, I managed to complete doing it and slide all the cards in the mailbox just in time.<br />
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At that time, I just wished that the cards would reached them in time. I didn't really expect any kind of blown-away reaction coming from them. I just thought that it was one of those good things that I rarely did and hoped the cards would be kept safe as a thing to remember. It gave me a sense of self-fulfilment and satisfaction to be able to do it. It's quite amazing how an act as ordinary as sending cards could lift you and give you something that some bigger things could not. And now, it gives me some sort of clarification that I really should start appreciating smaller things that has bigger meaning that they appear. It was simply extraordinary at that time, and it will remain extraordinary for as long as I breathe ...<br />
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Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-38621790154766339962011-09-18T21:22:00.003+08:002011-09-18T21:30:13.077+08:00A Risky Opportunity<div style="text-align: justify;">
It has been such a long time since my last entry. I am well aware that I'm doing less and less writing these days. Intentionally not writing about anything is far and away not the case here. It's just that I don't have the mood, the right ideas and thoughts and words to write anything. My mind was just taking a sudden creative break and I wasn't really in the right state of mind either. However, I don't intend to abandon this little space of mine and what I love doing as well. So, I hope from time to time, I will be able to put up something to read.</div>
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We went to a career exhibition in the city and we tried our luck on going for some huge companies along the way. One of them was totally a random decision. It was so random to the point where I had second thoughts about it. And the company was not really looking for any kinds of graduate from my field. We don't really have what it takes to be in that place too. But, we were quite attracted to the kinds of work that they do everyday. It is a huge, well-known company that holds conferences. events and other kinds of entertainment-related work, which is something that I quite keen to have a chance to work in. We were able to listen to an informative explanation from the senior manager himself. He was indeed kind enough to entertain us and gave us an overview of what the company was all about. Being engaging and extremely friendly didn't hurt either. One of my friends was very excited, she was already imagining us working there. I was, on the other hand, full of doubts and reservation. The same went to my other friend too. But, in the end, she managed to persuade us to go for it together and as soon as it finished, I just thought that I had made up mind on something so huge. I had a lot of instant anxiety, doubts and uneasy feelings the whole day. But everything was already said and done. There was no use regretting what we had got ourselves into. We walk off the place, hoping and praying we had truly made the right decision for ourselves just then.</div>
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People keep on telling me that you should take chances in life. As much as I believe in that inspiring phrases, I do believe that we must think the chances through before we make up my mind on what we should do. We ought to make the right move in order to make a conscious decision that will only lead us to good things in the end. As much as I want to think that the chance that I took yesterday was something that I couldn't miss out on, I do have my reservations as well. I don't know how it is going to turn out for me and my friends and how I am going to work there and try to blend in with the environment if I've got accepted. If it's meant to be for me, then I may give it a try. If it's not, I have nothing to lose either. At the very least, I had a chance to try my luck and conquered my fear. It was truly a risky opportunity to lay my fingers on, but I need to at least be positive about the whole thing. At the back of my little mind, I can't help but hoping it's all worth it in the end ...<br />
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Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-40363985728619805992011-08-27T08:04:00.005+08:002011-08-27T08:15:33.027+08:00I Love Them To Death, No Matter What ...<div style="text-align: justify;">The month filled with all sorts of blessings and lights is going to leave all of us again soon for another year. As I'm counting down these last few days before welcoming the upcoming month of celebration, I can't help but thinking this particular fasting month may be the most peaceful that I have ever had in years. I don't know, but I'm having this unspoken tranquillity throughout this month. I haven't done anything productive and I have a lot of things coming. I don't know how I am supposed to get it all done and I'm at my usual lazy-poke point. But somehow, they don't affect me much. It's just one of those times when I think I'm having this much freedom to do anything I want and I'm savouring it all the way to its last drop. I don't really want it to end so fast and I just want to be in this moment for as long as I wish. But time passes, and life has to go on. I need to face reality soon and it scares me in a way. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: justify;">I am well aware that I don't really have the most perfect family in the world. I am 4 years younger than the third siblings and 10 years younger than my abang-long, the first offspring of the family. We haven't been talking to each other much all this time, and we don't talk as much now naturally. Abang-long is married already, my abang-ngah has his own life and career that he enjoys so much now that he doesn't really come home often. My sister is having a life of her own as well and we are not as close as we had always been in the past. Therefore, it is pretty much a pros-and-cons matter to me. I've got to spend as much time as I want on my own and I'm able to concentrate on doing things that I love and would love to try. At the same time, it saddens me a bit that it becomes such a turning point for me because my life at the moment doesn't revolve much around them anymore. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Out of all 4 siblings, I dare to say that I'm the most rebellious one in the family. I would always fight with my abanglong because he didn't really do anything much at home and he would always be wasting all his money for something not worth spending his money on. I fought with my parents as much as well, especially my mom, who did not always come to agree with everything that I did. She still is and I've come to accept the fact that she's never going to agree with me all the way, though she let me do whatever I feel like doing most of the time. I love her anyway and it will never change. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Regarding my parents, it's quite difficult to talk about the relationship between these two, even more difficult knowing how they have turned out to be and how it has affected the relationship that we all share around our family. It's quite confusing and emotionally draining. Perfection has never been a precise word to describe the relationship that my mother and father has. Truthfully speaking, they are not in very good terms at the moment and sadly, this has been going on for many years already. In the past, there were always fights and dissatisfactions. It was either verbal fights or cold wars. Emotions were always at all time high when they exchanged words. I dare to say that it affected my siblings in a way. That might explains why my two brothers don't always make an effort to stay put at home as much now and me and my sister will always be doing something just to take our minds off somewhere when tension arises. My brothers did not really spill anything out, but my sister once told me that they have been going at it since the days they were still unmarried. Whenever I could find time to pray, I would pray every single day that they would find a way to get through it. Whatever way they might come up with, I could only hope that they would stop doing what they have been doing and get it over with. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">At the moment throughout this fasting month, they haven't been talking much. They just don't talk. It's not what I have in mind when it comes to seeing them working their relationship out. However, it is so much better than going back to where they were before. My abanglong did come home with sister-in-law and their 2 young babies not long ago during one weekend. My abangngah did come to visit us as soon as he touched down after spending a month in India to work on his project. On the other hand, about my parents, right now, I can only pray that they would find a better way to work it all out properly and not resorting into something as heartbreaking as this soon. It just so sad to think that we might have a slight chance to end it all on a very ugly note. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">It's always an overwhelmingly emotional thing to me. I have talked about it to some of my friends, who happen to be in a similar position and situation as mine. It breaks me to tell and it's just as heartbreaking to listen to as well. I have been holding on to my fragile strength for as long as I can remember and that explains why I put on a different face and attitude around people sometimes while I'm fighting my emotions with every bit of my fleeing will. Even so, it doesn't really work out for me. A very good friend of mine came to me one day and she sensed something was not right about me and the vibe that I was projecting at that time was just bad and suffocating. I let my guard down and told her everything as the result. It proves to me that I cannot always hold on to making straight faces and holding back. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">These are all a small portion of what has actually been happening in my family throughout all these years we're living together under one roof. To dig deeper into it is something that I don't really want to do and I'm sure people who read this entry don't want to know either. Even so, after all that I have poured down on this entry, I still love each and everyone of my family members so dearly. They are not the most perfect persons in the world but because of what we all share with each other, I am able to live in something that people call a "family". They are a lot of people out there who don't even own a family, don't even know who their family members are, where they have been and what they are doing at the moment. They don't even have vague memories of it. Therefore, I consider myself a very lucky human being to have one even if it seems imperfect and is filled with cracks and patches. I cannot bring myself to bash my family the way some famous faces do.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">I do hope that one day, things would turn out for the better not only for my parents, but also my relationship with my siblings and the relationship between my siblings and my parents as a whole. I also hope that my own family, if I'm ever going to have one, will be much happier than what I'm having now. I'll make sure of that. I don't know what future will hold for all of us. I don't think I want to know either. What matters is now and the efforts of bettering and making up for all those times we hurt each other deeply. I love them to death, no matter what happens. No matter what ... </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
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</div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-18042366356970753232011-08-09T07:40:00.011+08:002011-08-12T00:36:26.051+08:00Some Things Are Bound To Change<div style="text-align: justify;">I admit that I used to be a totally different person, sporting a totally different persona during those days in the past. I was so new to the world that I was seeing at that time and I tried hard to fit in as I was quite timid when growing up. Being timid made me a bit cautious towards my surroundings. But, it started to wear off gradually and I became quite open with what I was seeing, hearing and talking about. I got to know many different kinds of people and places that I had never been before. I started to learn new things, read different kinds of stuff, take on different kinds of challenges. These elements shaped me into who I was at certain point in my life. Then, came those changes, and I became another different person again. I started to figure out more about what I want and what I love. I started to think about what's best for me and what wasn't. I basically grew up into who I am today and I have never been much better, relaxed and liberated than I am now. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">A friend of mine came to me one day and the person said that he saw so many changes in me. Maybe because he was away from my sight for a long time and when the time came for us to meet up and have a talk, he sensed something a bit different about me. We're bound to meet up one of these days as well and he might say the same thing over again when we meet. I do believe that we cannot run away from changes. I now become a little bit simpler. I used to dress up till I overdressed myself sometimes. Now, I only look for things that are simpler to my eyes and less heavy-looking. I used to have less thoughts about what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go. Today, I am quite cautious about many things. I begin to think more about life and have much deeper thoughts about everything. These changes come naturally to my senses. Some of them love them and some of them think that it might be a little bit extreme for somebody as young as me. I had another friend who told me that I have matured more than I should and I am too old for my age to be thinking about or saying some things. I sense a small truth in what they said but I cannot go back to where I was and be at one place for the rest of my life.<br />
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</div><div style="text-align: justify;">I have to bring this one up because at this moment, a good friend of mine is carrying a huge burden of trying to let something go. In this case, it's human and she is trying to let the love that she's kept for so many years for this person go and move on. And truth be told, she has been spending a good deal of her time trying to let him go. When I first heard her story way back then, I had a clear thought that I would be giving her the best advice possible; let the person go. She has so much love inside of her to give away that it should be given to one very rightful person. The person who truly owns what he says, what he commits, what he promises and make her happy in the end, so that she should not feel that she gambles her fate away thoughtlessly and pours her heart and souls on a heart that only knows joyride. She said to me in the beginning that she truly believed that this person was the one for her. But time and time again, they both have proved to me, and to anyone that knows them, that they were not meant to be.<br />
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One day we happened to stumble upon each other and she started pouring what was inside of her to me. She admitted that the person was not always treating her the way he should and the relationship had turned sour a few times, to the point where it became surprisingly violent and abusive. It was not just the feeling of sadness and disappointment that I felt at that time. I felt sorry, I felt scared, and so heartbroken by what I heard. At the same time, I felt so helpless in a way that, I couldn't really find a way to help her, to give her the best words of advise possible and to mend her hurting heart. I told her that she should listen to her intuition and follow her rationality. And for a while, she did take the words into consideration and she seemed happy moving on even though she told me that the person was looking for her and begging her to return to him a few times.<br />
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Not long ago, we had a little chat about what was going on with our lives and she suddenly brought up her relationship to the table. She said they both would break up for good and nothing was coming in between her decision at that particular moment. I could only support her in everything that she was about to do and said she did the right thing because she should know better to give away her heart and soul to the right one, not a man who tend to take things for granted and doesn't really appreciate her dedication, loyalty and everything that she has to offer. However, deep within my heart, I couldn't really help myself from thinking that she wouldn't let him go that easily and she still would find some ways to get to him and get together again. I was right eventually, and it didn't really surprise me. I wasn't really enthusiastic and jumping up and down by the outcome of this whole turbulence.<br />
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It got me to a point where my mind started to think, maybe these two were really meant to be and they were forever bound by their heartbreaking fate. Therefore, I let her be and let them figure this out by themselves as I was in no way someone who could actually save it with mere words and opinions. Just as I thought things might go well eventually for both of them, they broke up once again a few days ago. Moreover, I dare to say that she is much more heartbroken now than she was previously. She has so many things to take care of and I really do hope sincerely, from the bottom of this little heart, that she is able to pull herself together through her trying times and do ask God's favour if she ever feels lost.<br />
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Somehow after all that has happened, I truly believe that what she is going through is something that I am very well able to relate to. In fact, I dare to say that maybe, I have more things that I'm regretting than all the people that I know. And I'm still in no possible way able to find the way out as I can't help myself from holding on to those things so dear in my heart. It's just heartbreaking and love is all I pray for so that someday, it could help me find a way to move on completely. If that friend of mine ever find this note that I'm writing and read it through, I sincerely hope that she doesn't consider this as a pitiful rant of one of her friend or a display of dissatisfaction and all. This is where all my ultimate truth lies. I pray she would find a peace of mind and possibly, a way to move on as well. Much love to you dear ...<br />
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This knowledge of knowing and experiencing brokenness has taught me one thing, that somehow we would find the truth of why they happen and why people seem to be much happier when they are already moving on. Even though it feels like I'm pretty much spent. But I know very well that I can't give up as my happiness is waiting for me somewhere out there. But for now, I'll just have to keep on living my life and bind myself around my loved ones, my friends and things I love dearly. It seems I won't be finding the art of letting go just yet..<br />
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</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">If you can’t ever find a better place where you can stay</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">You can always come back and find the best place you’ll ever be</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Here beside me</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">If the day is raining</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">When you’re looking at the sky</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">And it gets darker by the minute</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">You can’t even see a ray of light</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Don’t lie down on your bed alone and cry, my baby</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Look deep into your heart, and you’ll find me</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">As I’m sitting on the steps counting the days</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">You’re out there chasing dreams</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Wish I could find a wing and fly away</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Be by your side now, that’s my only dream</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">If the pain burns inside your heart and you feel like screaming</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Just turn the radio on, play our favourite songs and sing</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Let it be your healing</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">If the world around you</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Is turning into an empty space</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">And reality hits you hard</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">You can’t even fake a smile on your face</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">You’re close to falling and you need somebody</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Look deep into your soul and you’ll find me</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Someday, you’ll find your way up to the top of those mountains</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">And you’ll have the strength to swim across the seven oceans</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">So, I hope you still have me in every corners of your mind</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">I pray there's still be a way to get to you and make you forever mine</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: #333333; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">NOTE:</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: inherit;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit; line-height: 1.5em;">A lyrical poetry that I wrote a couple of years ago about one of my good friends' long distance relationship. At that time, I was impressed by how dedicated and committed he was on trying to make his relationship work. I was even more impressed when I got to know that the relationship had been going on for a couple of years. Later that night, I went back to my college dorm and took my poetry book out straight away to write about everything that I thought about that kind of relationship If I ever had one. Surprisingly a few days after, he came to me and said the relationship had already fallen apart and it wasn't much of a mutual kind of </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">separation. </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Till this day, I'm still saddened by how it turned out. It had already run its course. But, I never lose this sense of awe and impressiveness about their commitment when they were still together because it takes so much to keep it up. Love is a great thing. And as we all know so well, great things come with great responsibility to burden, and great prices to pay.</span> </span></div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-12881582703219545602011-08-02T18:12:00.001+08:002011-08-02T18:17:20.846+08:00Seeking Forgiveness in the Month Filled with Blessings<div style="text-align: justify;">Not a single word could ever describe how grateful, lucky and blessed I am to be able to live my life, to love everything that I love and to breathe till this day. I am very much over the moon to get to experience this particular month again and to witness all sorts of His blessings and power in all their glories. It's that time of year again where everything is all about doing good things and getting that much sort-after rewarded. It's that time again for all of us to cleanse ourselves from all the wrongdoings and make a resolution to display a better representation of oneself; inside and outside. I am just as excited as everybody else this time around too. I realize that I've done so many wrongdoings instead of good deeds and I know very well what they are. My hope is that I could change that and try to be more of a matured, thoughtful and accepting man that I used to be in the past. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">The first thing that I did just before the first day of the month came was to seek forgiveness upon every wrong that I've done over the years, which was a first for me. I sought forgiveness from God, my loved ones and all my beautiful friends. I came to realize that I wasn't really much of a good person and I was far from treating everybody with kindness and open-heartedness. I am blown away by the love and support that these people have been giving me since. Therefore, it's just the right, natural thing to do. Hopefully, even in a small way, I am forgiven as I've already forgiven the wrongs that they've done. I do hope to decorate my book of life with many great, extraordinary things and not sins that I've committed. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">As the second day of this blessed month is on its way, I pray whole-heartedly to the One and Only that I would have a great journey ahead. A journey filled with so many memories that I want to treasure, so many ideas that I want to pour down all over my writing, so many golden opportunities to live a good life, to see things that I've never seen, to go to places that I've never been, to try many new things and to learn from them, to know extraordinary people along the way, to love and cherish all the souls and things that I love more and so much more. On top of it all, I would like to be a greater person that I am now and find my long lost happiness again soon. I'm counting the days till that day comes. </div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-81414455897029605562011-07-27T00:21:00.001+08:002011-07-27T00:22:00.654+08:00The Things Worth Giving Away & Leaving Behind<div style="text-align: justify;">Last Saturday and Sunday, I suddenly had the overwhelming urge to go through my closet and check on my clothes and stuff I put inside it and thank God I did. It's not that my closet was such a huge mess even when I put almost everything I kept inside it because I would always find a space in it. It's just that, I realized that it was so packed with everything that wasn't mine. Therefore, I decided to have it spring-cleaned, in 2 straight days. I took out everything from shirts, to pants, to my jeans and those that I don't think I would want to wear anymore. Then, I took out those that wasn't mine that my mother had been stuffing inside my small closet all these years. I took them all out and I put them all in a store closet. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Then, I worked on my clothes. As I went through everything, hanged everything up and folded every piece, I found that I hadn't been wearing some of the clothes that I was keeping up to that particular day. I didn't know what to do with them. There were all still in great condition. It's just that I don't have the urge, the figure, and the right age to pull the look anymore. As I'm getting older, my taste is changing as well. Therefore, I decided to give them away to some of my friends. I have everything in all kinds of sizes. So, I don't really worry about giving them away. My friends all come in all shapes and sizes as well, that is so good to be aware of. I have given a few of my shirts to some of my friends who share the same size as me not long ago. I still do have some more that I'm going to give away later on. As a result, my closet has become a little bit much spacious than how it used to be like before I spring-cleaned it. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">It has also taught me something very important that day. Something that I'm lacking in terms of living as a human being. Something that my friends and family have always been reminding me up to this day. It is about giving away and be generous. I've always taught that I can keep my stuff for as long as I live without giving them away. And I've always taught that I wouldn't want anybody to wear my stuff and I would always find a day to wear them again. I admit that I was a little bit stingy in the past. And now, I still can't believe that spring-cleaning my own closet is all that it takes to change my heart. I feel a little bit liberated along the way as well. It's such a tremendously great feeling to make someone's day and make them happy even though with something as incredibly simple as a shirt. I'm living my life one day at a time as a person different than I used to be in the past and I couldn't be happier. Perhaps, those clothes are definitely things worth giving away and leaving behind after all ... </div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-78374379004359967442011-07-25T00:24:00.000+08:002011-07-25T00:24:31.338+08:00The City of Broken HeartsIn the city of broken hearts<br />
Where anything could break you apart<br />
I stood there trying to be strong<br />
As I had been waiting for you long<br />
<br />
In the city of broken hearts<br />
Where dreams die and tear apart<br />
I tried my hardest to keep mine alive<br />
‘Coz I could only dream of you in this life<br />
<br />
But, nothing’s ever working from the start<br />
<br />
Now I’ve found you, but you look me away<br />
You’re standing like a statue; you got no words to say<br />
Silence is the only answer you could ever give<br />
I bet all that you want right now is to leave<br />
<br />
In the city of hundred stories buildings<br />
Shining like a spotlight under the sun<br />
It’s blinding but I kept my eyes wide open<br />
Just in case, you might ever come back running<br />
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In the city of flashing red lights<br />
Lighting up the streets so bright at night<br />
I could hardly see the moonlight shining in the sky<br />
So, I prayed I would find you somewhere in the light<br />
<br />
I realize I was procrastinating all this time<br />
<br />
Now I’ve found you, but you look me away<br />
You’re standing like a statue; you got no words to say<br />
Silence is the only answer you could ever give<br />
I wonder if you want me to turn around and leave<br />
<br />
You’re here with me with a look that breaks my heart<br />
You’ve always been so easy, now you’re making it hard<br />
In this sad concrete town, we begin to feel so little<br />
Guess losing is a sure thing when love is only a cold battle<br />
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Don’t you think so?<br />
<br />
And now I’ve found you, you look me away<br />
Am I the reason there’s no smile on your face?<br />
Your silence seems to say I’m who you can’t forgive<br />
Maybe I was wrong to think you’re who I could believe<br />
Now, it’s time for me to leave ...<br />
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NOTE:<br />
<div style="text-align: justify;">This is actually one of my favourite poetry that I've written and it was written based on a story that I had in mind. It tells a story of a person who has been waiting for the love of his/her life to return, only to end up noticing that the person has already had a change of heart when he comes back to him/her. At the time I was writing this one, I knew that I did not want to go straight into telling how the situation was like. So, I created a metaphorical storyline. I imagined this person was waiting for him/her in the city who was known for being a place where everybody would end up losing love and broken hearted. But, the person just stayed strong and tried to turn a blind eye. And when his/her love did come back, the person couldn't help but noticing something had changed, the other half had changed and the love was gone. The feeling of losing love is something that is very close to my heart. Because I know very well that I have actually gone through the experience and it was definitely an awful thing to soak in. Even though this writing is just an exaggeration of outpouring creativity and words play, but the feeling that lingered around this one is just as real as anybody who has actually experience it. </div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-7140759030133804612011-07-09T07:52:00.003+08:002011-07-26T06:11:27.455+08:00The First 6 Months<div style="text-align: justify;">6 months have passed, just like wind. So fast you haven't finished figuring out and digesting most of the things that have happened within that period. And suddenly, you open your eyes and the second 6 months of the year have already commenced. And I find it very interesting to actually start this entry with the first note of the year, as I started previously with a poetry post. I should have done the note first, then moving on with the poetry. But, it happens that the need to start a note comes at this very moment and not previously. So here it goes. Let's start this one off by saying that this has been the most challenging year I've ever had yet. The new year started with a bang too. And now I'm spilling some of the things out.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">My new year kicked off by studying and completing my lessons and assignments for the last 2 subjects that I would take up before going for my 15-week teaching practicum around 2 weeks from that moment. It was really difficult for everybody, and especially me, when I hadn't finished accepting the fact that my teaching practicum was brought forward from March initially to January. All I could say at that time was, I wasn't even ready to face what was in front of me and I was forced to accept the fact that I would be going for it in less than 2 weeks time. And I would be having the last final exam for the 2 subjects taken a week before going for practicum. With so many things to be taken care of and so little time to spare for all the preparation, I wasn't sure whether to go for it or skip it. And I have a short thesis to prepare and complete too. I started to realize that I had so many things on my plate at that particular moment. Miraculously, I managed to complete every single thing, and score very well. And I actually found time to write some poetry in between. The last day of the exam was very hard. It's even harder the night before. We knew we had to say goodbye and we never knew when we would ever meet again. I walked home with all the memories of 3-4 years we had together flashing through my mind. It was a very tough time, till the very last minutes of packing stuff and checking out the day after. I realized at that time as well, I was actually pretty good in not showing my reluctance to be apart from my college friends. I promised myself not to because I didn't really think that we're going to be a world apart just yet. I believed at that time that we could still be able to meet one another and we did. I stumbled into some of them when I was at my college dealing with my supervising lecturers as they happened to be there for the same reason as well. Back to what I was talking about just then, that concluded my life as a college students. Next; being a teacher. Trainee teacher, to be exact.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">God knows how nervous I was on my first day at training school. There were so many things to know and so much to remember; the teachers, the staff, the students, the classes, the buildings and most importantly, how to do well during that period. I never knew being teacher is a demanding job. From a former student's point of view of mine, I thought being a teacher was only about teaching students knowledge and marking papers. I had never thought about the "other" work. Especially in a vocational and skills oriented school, where knowledge and skills are taught, learned and practiced at the same time. It's a tough job and it changed the perception that I had about teachers in the past. I dare to say that the experience was actually mind-changing and eye-opening. I started getting along with the teachers and the staff. They were so nice and so helpful. They really showed us around and made us feel like home. There were, still, a few ones that were quite "stand-off"-ish and a bit unfriendly. I took that as a learning experience as you can't expect everybody to like you. But you don't ever be that way to others. Show as much respect as you can. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">During these 15 weeks as well, I had a chance to get to know my teammates. I never really knew much about them before this. So, I treated that as a bonding session. I tried to get to know them a little bit better and I got to know many interesting parts of who they are I had never seen and known before. For 15 weeks, we were trying to work as a team. We did our lesson plans and shared our thoughts and ideas, helped each other, helping teachers pulling off events, took care of students and watched over them. It was so hectic that we actually had to sit down one day in the staffroom and made a decision to extend our thesis completion from March's end to June's end. And yes, we were traveling back and forth from where we were staying to our college to deal with our supervisors and superiors. At the end of our practicum, we still could not believe that we managed to pull off all those things we did and survived. As soon as it ended, everybody started working on their thesis and so was I. By June, my friends and I successfully submitted them all. At this time, I haven't really found the job that I am looking for. Some of my friends are already working, some are still searching and having job interviews. I'm still here trying to figure out what I should do. I have decided to pursue a masters programme early next year. Just thinking about it makes me want to hunt for jobs as I need to save up for it. I can't live off my parents' money for the rest of my life. I must be optimistic.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
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</div><div style="text-align: justify;">I haven't really written much as well. Due to the lack of pastime and the workload since the very first month of the year, I couldn't spare some time to write about things. I didn't update this blog, I just didn't. So many great ideas came to mind during that hectic time. But, I just couldn't find time to sit down, clear my head and write them down. And, they ended up vanishing into thin air and nowhere to be found. Therefore, I have also decided that I want to return to my writing and brush it up. I want to revive that sense again and better it. Moreover, I am currently listening to a lot of different music lately. I discover new artist and bands, new tunes, their inspiration to write and their way of saying things. I'm reading a lot of literature, facts, stories and histories these days as well. I am truly inspired. They really broaden my horizon even more and make me want to open up to new things and discover new ways to say things. I really want to put what I have gained from discovering all these to a test and see how far I could push myself creatively. I never want to stop this new-found experience. I want to explore more and see things in many new perspectives from now on. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">And so, I hope that in the next 6 months, I would find most of the things that I've always been looking for in life. I really want to stay positive and embrace life from now on. As you get older, you may want to see things differently and be a better person that you were previously. I don't really want to let negativity get the best of me. I really need to learn to be ignorant and not let them go to my head. Those things and people that I love and care so much for are all I have. As long as I have them inside here, and a little bit of faith as well, I might be able to do it, and maybe, I'll find the happiness that I've lost once again eventually ...</div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-30231072984447595472011-07-08T23:30:00.001+08:002011-07-08T23:32:50.241+08:00This TimeForgiveness is a simple thing<br />
It’s a way of letting go of the past<br />
But you know, something as simple as this<br />
Will never come to last<br />
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To fall in love is just a sweet thing<br />
In a moment, you’ve found your everything<br />
But in the end, if all you ever feel is misery<br />
Better leave and just walk away<br />
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This time, I pray<br />
Hope He wills my pain away<br />
It’s too much for me to take<br />
And His my only saving grace<br />
<br />
Bittersweet is what I feel inside<br />
You can tell by looking into my eyes<br />
It’s hard but the only thing left to do<br />
Is moving on<br />
<br />
Don’t lie to ourselves anymore, dear<br />
The ending is coming near<br />
Bury all these thoughts at the back of our minds<br />
And move on<br />
<br />
This time, we pray<br />
Hope we finally find a way<br />
To forget yesterday<br />
And live for another day<br />
<br />
Through the darkness, through whatever<br />
Passing seasons and changing weather<br />
As you start believing nothing is forever<br />
I’ll dry my eyes and pull myself together<br />
<br />
This time, I pray<br />
Hope it’s not too late<br />
This heart of mine is hurting<br />
To You, I seek my healing<br />
You’re my only saving grace<br />
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NOTE:<br />
<div style="text-align: justify;">It wasn't supposed to be this long and reflective until one particular night of chanting prays and reflecting what was happening around me 2 years ago. It was originally a very simple poetry. But that one night changed everything. I had my first pray since forever and I looked back all the problems that my friends were facing at the time; broken hearts, losing things, one problem after another. It was really an eye opener for me. Suddenly something came to my mind, saying that I had been neglecting what should and doing what should not for as long as I could remember. Everything flashed through my face and I suddenly wanted to seek God's help for the first time in many years. As soon as I finished performing my pray, I took my poetry file from the bookshelf and I accidentally turned to this piece. And I thought, I really want to change this one a little bit because it deserved a little bit of creative justice and a much deeper reflection. It came naturally and I revised some of the words and added a few lines. This is one of my favourites. </div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-15074121258218439442011-07-07T18:11:00.000+08:002011-07-07T18:11:04.181+08:00FaithlessYour eyes are your diamonds<br />
Sparkling like the stars, shining like the sun<br />
The one I’ve always been dreaming to find<br />
Your lips are my saviour<br />
Chanting my name like words of a prayer<br />
Saving me every time I lose my mind<br />
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You light me up, you’re perfect for me<br />
I can touch the Heaven whenever you’re near<br />
<br />
My world was like a shattered wonderland<br />
Before you came around and held it in your hands<br />
Suddenly, everything started to change, I thank you<br />
But now, something is holding you down<br />
‘Coz every time we’re trying to get a little serious<br />
You’ll leave the bed and walk out of the room<br />
<br />
They say you don’t believe in love<br />
Maybe I should say some pray to God above<br />
<br />
Tell me that you love me so<br />
Tell me that you’re mine<br />
Or you’re in this just for a joyride?<br />
Did you mean those words you said?<br />
Were they nothing but sweet lies?<br />
Tell me, do you honestly believe in love?<br />
‘Coz right now, I don’t think you do<br />
Faithless<br />
<br />
There were times this life had brought me to my knees<br />
And you stood there trying to make me feel at ease<br />
You’re my angel through those trying times<br />
But now, I feel like something is holding you down<br />
‘Coz every time the talks turn a little too serious<br />
You’ll walk away and turn off the light<br />
<br />
I refuse to believe you don’t believe in love<br />
I pray to God above, hoping you would …<br />
<br />
Tell me that you love me so<br />
Tell me that you’re mine<br />
Or you’re in this just for a joyride?<br />
Did you mean those words you said?<br />
Were they nothing but sweet lies?<br />
Tell me, do you honestly believe in love?<br />
‘Coz right now, I don’t think you do<br />
Faithless<br />
<br />
Should I keep on gambling my hopes away on you,<br />
Even if these thoughts of mine of you speak the truth?<br />
<br />
Tell me that you love me so<br />
Tell me that you’re mine<br />
Or have you been lying all this time?<br />
Hope you’d confess to me now<br />
Before we fall off this ground<br />
Darling, are you truly into this love?<br />
‘Coz to me now, you just seem to be<br />
So faithless, faithless in love<br />
You’re faithless<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
NOTE:<br />
<div style="text-align: justify;"> I wrote this one after listening to a song and as a way to tell myself that I shouldn't have this kind of feeling when loving somebody, the same goes to the other half. Being faithless is one of those things that I'm most afraid of. Because, I keep telling myself to have faith in everything that I do and every situation. But sometimes, it's way too easy to lose it when you're halfway there. I guess, that's what makes me human. I keep telling my friends to have faith when I don't exactly have that all the time. It takes a world of courage to love somebody or something and make it come true. I'll take note of my own advice from now and start learning to have it one day at a time. </div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-10703276544413104252011-07-06T19:25:00.001+08:002011-07-06T19:25:28.489+08:00May You Be ThereDon’t want to sit and stare<br />
I know I can go anywhere<br />
‘Coz love will take me there<br />
<br />
No use crying in silence<br />
Tired of shedding tears<br />
I wan to go to the ocean<br />
<br />
Where I can put my heart to rest<br />
This memory is meant to last.<br />
<br />
Darling, I’ll remember you<br />
You’re a million miles away<br />
But, I can still feel you near<br />
The ground might have consumed you<br />
But I know, your soul is right there<br />
Hoping I would come for you soon<br />
So, may you be there<br />
When my time comes, may you be there<br />
<br />
I look at the clear sky<br />
And I can see that shining light<br />
Bet it must be your smile<br />
<br />
In every corner, every space<br />
I can only see your face<br />
And it lights up this empty place<br />
<br />
Losing you is more than I can take<br />
But, this love will get me through the day<br />
<br />
Darling, I’ll remember you<br />
You’re a million miles away<br />
But, I can still feel you near<br />
The ground might have consumed you<br />
But I know, your soul is right there<br />
Hoping I would come for you soon<br />
So, may you be there<br />
When my time comes, may you be there<br />
<br />
This life means nothing<br />
Without you here<br />
Can’t wait to fall apart<br />
And meet you there<br />
May you be there, don’t go anywhere.<br />
<br />
Darling, I’ll remember you<br />
You’re a million miles away<br />
But, I can still feel you near<br />
The ground might have consumed you<br />
But I know, your soul is right there<br />
Hoping I would come for you soon<br />
So, may you be there<br />
When my time comes, may you be there<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
NOTE:<br />
<div style="text-align: justify;">I conceived the idea of writing this one after watching a very sad movie a couple of years ago. I was really moved by the idea of loving somebody so much and having a very genuine love that it stays with you forever and it will live on even when one person has to live and another has to die. And that was the theme of the what I was watching and just like that, it got me enamoured. I was touched and I quickly grab a piece of paper and my favourite pencil and wrote about my own story and thoughts about it the next day. When I finished writing it, it became so straight-forward and raw. I decided to leave it that way. I wish I could have something as genuine and as true as this someday. </div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-30420436526241009192011-07-06T16:06:00.000+08:002011-07-06T16:06:54.371+08:00Remember TodayI’m walking with my head up<br />
Looking at those white clouds above<br />
As minutes pass me by like a running river<br />
I start to miss your faces<br />
<br />
I turn to these flawed hands of mine<br />
And they take me to a memory gone by<br />
Where I used to feel afraid to reach out<br />
Then absentmindedly, you took me in<br />
You found me out<br />
<br />
I close my eyes and say<br />
“You were too kind back then”<br />
<br />
I’ll remember today<br />
As I’m walking away<br />
I’ll remember today<br />
As I’m counting my footsteps<br />
Keep me in your heart, day and night<br />
Write my name on the skylines<br />
And I’ll be always on your mind<br />
<br />
I look around our vacant class<br />
I recall the first time we began<br />
I looked at you, but you looked away<br />
Seems like now, we’re more than best of friends<br />
<br />
We felt love, we felt pain<br />
We had joy, blues and heartbreaks<br />
Under the sun, in the rain<br />
We’d find glories, we would fail<br />
Our story was one bittersweet fairytale<br />
We’ve made it through<br />
We’re unbreakable, it’s true<br />
<br />
I put my hands on my chest and say<br />
“I can never find this anywhere”<br />
<br />
I’ll remember today<br />
As our ending begins<br />
I’ll remember today<br />
As I wish good times don’t end<br />
Keep me in your heart, day and night<br />
Write my name on the skylines<br />
And I’ll be always on your mind<br />
<br />
We hug each other tight<br />
We shake hands and say goodbye<br />
As best wishes fill the air<br />
I burn all pains and hurts to ashes<br />
And say a little pray<br />
Hope we’ll meet again one day<br />
<br />
We’ll remember today<br />
As we turn away and leave<br />
You and this place<br />
‘Till the day I rest in peace<br />
If you ever find yourself missing me<br />
Think of me and these words day and night<br />
Keep me in your heart<br />
And you’ll see your name on the skylines<br />
You’ll be always on my mind.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
NOTE:<br />
<div style="text-align: justify;">A very nostalgic piece indeed. I wrote this one a few nights before my big final exam of my final semester before going for my practicum earlier this year. As I was studying and reflecting the things we all have done together for the last 3-4 years, and as my classmates were posting their goodbyes on Facebook, Twitter and all, I was really driven to write this. It was quite an easy moment writing this one down as all the memories and ideas were flashing on my mind together and the words just came smoothly. I dare to say, this is one of the sincerest piece that I have written. This was never meant to be a farewell kind of message. It was more like keeping all the memories we had made together safe in our minds and ushering the reality that we were going to face as we got nearer to the end. It's touching and moving, but also inspiring at the same time. </div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-4633510835553623252011-07-05T00:16:00.001+08:002011-07-05T00:25:03.877+08:00There You GoLook for the answers<br />
If you’re lost in your own confusion<br />
Glory of the day comes with a thousand sacrifices<br />
Then, the universe would listen to your atonement<br />
<br />
Reach out for the light<br />
If you’re close to losing your faith<br />
Never turn your back even just for once<br />
It might just be your only saving grace<br />
<br />
There you go, all the doors have open up for you<br />
A pray from the heart to God would pull you through<br />
When insignificance comes around and holds you down<br />
You know it’s time for you to let it go<br />
<br />
Look for solutions<br />
If you ever lose your sense of direction<br />
A single path taken reveals another million<br />
You’re bound to make your choice of decision<br />
<br />
Come to me<br />
If you ever feel like giving up<br />
I’m your second chance, forever be by your side<br />
To live a life worth the greatest of fights<br />
<br />
There you go, the angels sing in the sky for you<br />
So, bare your soul and change to someone new<br />
When your naked eyes are fooling you around<br />
Hold on tight those truths you’ve kept inside<br />
<br />
Run for shelter<br />
If the rain clouds come to bother you again<br />
But, your heart seems to know so much better<br />
That the downpour could wash away your hurting pain<br />
<br />
There you go, all the doors have open up for you<br />
A pray from the heart to God would pull you through<br />
When insignificance comes around and holds you down<br />
You know it’s time for you to let it go<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
NOTE:<br />
<div style="text-align: justify;">Another new post (although not exactly new). There comes a time when you will just sit on a couch reflecting on things and trying to see those things in a whole new different dimension. And that's what happened when I wrote this one 2 years ago (when I was 20 years old). I sat alone at my college's cafe and somehow, the ideas to write this one came to mind. This was one of those writing which I had deep thoughts about and I really reflected all the things that I had done, was doing and would be doing in the future. It made me believe that I can get through whatever as long as I have strength and faith inside me. And that's what I hoped while I was writing this one. </div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-56810396958491726392011-07-04T19:57:00.000+08:002011-07-04T19:57:52.853+08:00Come What MaySummer heat<br />
Comes around with the wind<br />
And it whispers gently to my ears<br />
As the days<br />
Pass me by like a river<br />
Flowing with memories of all these years<br />
<br />
I realize good dreams have gone<br />
It’s quite a lost, but I’m moving on<br />
<br />
I’m walking away<br />
There’s nothing more to say<br />
Don’t want to shed anymore tears away<br />
I’ll live for another day<br />
This is my life<br />
Never been perfect<br />
I should have known better this love won’t go anywhere<br />
Nevermore, I am waiting for your hands, so come what may<br />
<br />
I don’t need your sorry<br />
Won’t buy all your stories<br />
You’re running out of chances now<br />
Lose control<br />
This anger has taken its toll<br />
And soon, it burns everything to the ground<br />
<br />
The blue sky turns grey for the two of us<br />
It’s going to rain soon, so let’s just …<br />
<br />
Let’s just walk away<br />
There’s nothing left to say<br />
Don’t want to shed anymore tears away<br />
We’ll live for another day<br />
Lead a new life<br />
Though it won’t be perfect<br />
We should have known better this love won’t go anywhere<br />
Nevermore, I am waiting for your hands, so come what may<br />
<br />
We’re never really meant to be<br />
I’m losing all my hopes, and so are we<br />
I’m not the one you needed<br />
Leave and be happy<br />
<br />
‘Cause this bliss is going to end<br />
As I count 1 to 10<br />
This love is truly ending<br />
And these words don’t mean a thing<br />
So, go on with your life<br />
You’re gonna be perfect<br />
Though these wounds heal, the scars stay in my heart anyway<br />
Don’t ever wish we’ll be holding hands again<br />
So, come what may<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
NOTE:<br />
My first post in almost a year already. Although this one is not particularly new, I just want to share this one here, reflecting the sunny season of the year that is so well-known for its fiery love and endless separations. I wrote this one when I was 20 years old and it was about a friend of mine who had found love but it had to end a little bit too soon for him. I was inspired to write this one after listening to him and listening to one my favourite songs of Taylor Swift back then. Love is divine, but if both persons are just not meant to be, you've got to move on and reflect on what has happened. It only makes you stronger. Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-63143374764565275482010-11-30T21:54:00.003+08:002010-11-30T21:54:41.909+08:00FireworksThat cold night came with so much glitter<br />
Lighting up the perfect, navy blue sky<br />
We were a few miles away from town<br />
But, we knew there’s a celebration coming down<br />
<br />
We took a car and drove away<br />
As fast as we could, so we wouldn’t be late<br />
But, we got there just in time to watch<br />
The most beautiful night we’d ever had<br />
<br />
Silence all around<br />
10 to 1, we started to count<br />
<br />
I looked at you<br />
You’re too caught up in the moment<br />
With a smile on your face<br />
Enraptured by those fireworks<br />
Bursting in the sky<br />
And across the space<br />
I took a chance and told you I love you<br />
And that was the last thing I’d ever said to you<br />
<br />
That cold night comes around again tonight<br />
Can’t believe it’s been a year without you by my side<br />
As I drive away, I wonder where you are tonight<br />
Would you be there if I called you out this time?<br />
<br />
Lovers, walking down every corner of the streets<br />
Away from the world, what matters is here<br />
Looking back at those days we used to be in love<br />
I’ve got teary-eyed, I just can’t hold back these tears<br />
<br />
It’s happening all over again<br />
10 to 1, but everything remains unchanged<br />
<br />
And I think of you<br />
In the middle of the crowd<br />
I fake a smile on my face<br />
As I’m looking at the fireworks<br />
My mind is filled with thoughts of you<br />
In every space<br />
Wish you were here to see me crying<br />
I don’t want anything else<br />
‘Coz it’s you I’m missing<br />
<br />
Goodbyes fill the air<br />
Ready to call it a day<br />
All good things will come to end<br />
But, hurts and pain are here to stay<br />
<br />
I pray for you<br />
As I’m closing another chapter of my life<br />
Without a smile on my face<br />
Then, the fireworks stop<br />
I guess I have to go now<br />
I’m heading back to my place<br />
So, I take this chance to forgive you<br />
But, I’d never know if I could ever forget you<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
P/S:<br />
The second one from a pair of work that I did after listening to a song. The first one was One Less Pair of Hearts. Another theme that goes on in that song is about how fireworks triggers love memories with that person, signifies the end of a relationship and paves a way to move on. Wrote this exactly after the first one. And I actually was writing this with a melody in mind. The story might just be an exaggeration. But the persona I took the inspiration to write this from is real and that person is a dear friend of mine ...Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-26046275277681747652010-11-30T17:11:00.001+08:002010-11-30T17:11:37.401+08:00World of WondersLeave your bed cold now, sweet child<br />
Open up your beautiful eyes<br />
Wake up from your never-ending dream<br />
The light of a new world is waiting<br />
<br />
Don’t be afraid and whimper, sweet child<br />
Open up your innocent heart wide<br />
It’s time for you to look deep inside<br />
In your soul you’ll find meaning, it’s not a lie<br />
<br />
Take that first step and you realize<br />
It’s a world of wonders outside<br />
Full of things that you’ve never seen<br />
And places you’ve never been<br />
<br />
My sweet child<br />
Waiting for the life to begin<br />
Let your tears run dry<br />
Make your way to a new beginning<br />
<br />
Never feel a little too late to learn<br />
There will always be a room for improvement<br />
Evil whispers everywhere, lingering on your ears<br />
Remember, God is ever watching over your shoulders<br />
<br />
Growing up is a hard thing to do, love<br />
So, better look on the brighter side<br />
Mother will save you from falling out of love<br />
Father’s hands will lift you up high ‘till you reach the sky<br />
<br />
Hurricane winds and raging thunderstorm<br />
Come crashing down on your way back home<br />
Try to find a perfect shelter along the way<br />
So, you’ll be coming back home safe from harm<br />
<br />
My sweet child<br />
Taking off on a journey<br />
Never ever lose your sight<br />
Keep praying wherever you may be<br />
<br />
Don’t dwell on yesterday<br />
If it ever makes you sad<br />
Senseless fear won’t get you anywhere<br />
Nothing’s coming in your way<br />
Don’t worry, it’s gonna be okay<br />
You know love will always take you there<br />
<br />
My sweet child<br />
Heaven above is ever forgiving<br />
Mistakes are meant to be learnt<br />
Live a life worth a thousand years of living<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
P/S:<br />
Something that I wrote a year ago. A very simple message for the youngsters who will take over the future when we've got older ...Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-20312123776914535132010-11-30T17:10:00.001+08:002010-11-30T17:10:54.162+08:00Here We AreRemember<br />
Those days when we used to play around<br />
With false hopes and empty dreams<br />
Remember<br />
We’re close to falling off the ground<br />
And drowned ourselves in misery<br />
We lost our guiding light so many times along the way<br />
Never thought after all that we’d been through<br />
We would ever find it again<br />
<br />
Here we are<br />
Together as one<br />
Wrapping our sweet thoughts around us<br />
Through the day and through the night<br />
You’ll be here beside me<br />
Forever ad always, you’re my one and only<br />
<br />
Still remember<br />
We used to sing those love songs<br />
And we talked about those silly things<br />
That you would be the queen<br />
And I would be the king<br />
In the imaginary castle that we built<br />
Then, we had ups and downs and we both went away chasing dreams<br />
Never thought after all these years<br />
We would find ourselves loving each other once again<br />
<br />
Here we are<br />
Together again<br />
Looking back at our bittersweet past<br />
Can’t help but to cry<br />
Knowing you’ll be by my side<br />
Now I realize that we’re just meant to last<br />
<br />
True love is here to stay<br />
Happiness, whispering in the air<br />
What more could I ask for?<br />
I can never find another you anywhere<br />
Now, let’s live and die<br />
Together in the light<br />
<br />
Here we are<br />
Looking at each other<br />
As we wrap ourselves around the promises<br />
"Happily ever after” is right in front of us<br />
Don’t ever think this is a fairytale<br />
Just believe in what I say<br />
Forever and always, we’ll stay this way<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
P/S:<br />
Since November this year a month full of weddings and heartbreaks, might as well I post this one that I wrote a year ago. Wrote this with a picture of a pair of hearts reminiscing good old bittersweet days before walking down the isle and lead a new life ahead. Even if heartbreaks are your company, it's good to take some time and reminisce all good times you had previously before you head on to another new beginning. ^o^ And for those who will be walking down the isle, I sincerely wish you all the best be happy...Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-55152480797336295992010-11-30T17:09:00.002+08:002010-11-30T17:09:36.864+08:00One Less Pair of HeartsIt was yesterday<br />
When you told me we would go out and play<br />
Today<br />
I remembered it well<br />
That you wanted to take me to that place<br />
Where the night would never end<br />
<br />
We would walk down the street where you used to see<br />
Those dreams of love and bliss live eternally<br />
<br />
Now, I’m here<br />
Looking at those people walking hand in hand<br />
Looking at the sky full of stars at night<br />
Now, I’m here<br />
Putting all hopes and fears in this one chance<br />
But you’re nowhere to be found<br />
I can see they’re sitting around, next to each other<br />
Waiting for the fireworks to start<br />
Bet they won’t ever realize<br />
There’s still one less pair of hearts.<br />
<br />
Guess it’s true<br />
They say all your prays will be answered<br />
Today<br />
And nothing can make you cry tonight<br />
It makes me wonder<br />
“Could these tears of mine dry this time?”<br />
<br />
‘Coz I’m hoping you would wash them all away<br />
And I would say a pray with every step we’d take<br />
<br />
Now, I’m here<br />
Looking at those people walking hand in hand<br />
Looking at the sky full of stars at night<br />
Now, I’m here<br />
Putting all hopes and fears in this one chance<br />
But you’re nowhere to be found<br />
I can see they’re sitting around, next to each other<br />
Waiting for the fireworks to start<br />
Bet they won’t ever realize<br />
There’s still one less pair of hearts.<br />
<br />
I could make my way back home right now<br />
And just pretend you’ve never promised me anything<br />
I could just be looking around, wasting this time away<br />
But I don’t know why I’m still waiting<br />
<br />
And now I’m here<br />
Looking at those people walking side by side<br />
Under the sky full of stars tonight<br />
But I’m in tears<br />
Knowing I’ve been holding on to just empty words<br />
‘Coz you’re nowhere to be found<br />
The moment they begin to lie down on the grass<br />
Fireworks tear the silence all apart<br />
Guess they will never know<br />
I’m that one less pair of hearts<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
P/S:<br />
Wrote this a year ago after listening to a Japanese song. In fact, this is one of a pair of original writings that I wrote based on that song. I couldn't help but to feel connected with the song. So, I wrote this one, based on the message it conveyed and a little bit of from a friend's experience, before calling it a day. I know very well how difficult it is to hold on to empty words and empty love ...Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-72654942730758965322010-11-30T17:06:00.002+08:002010-11-30T17:06:34.118+08:00Rain on the AfternoonI wake myself up<br />
From that long, dreamless night<br />
A sleep that seemed so restless<br />
Though I’d turned off the light<br />
<br />
I wake myself up<br />
To the sound of teardrops falling on the roof<br />
Absent-mindedly looking out my window<br />
To find out it’s raining on the afternoon<br />
<br />
People on the roadside turn away and run<br />
As the grey clouds sail away under the sun<br />
I’m sitting on my bed watching time flies by<br />
So fast like these falling raindrops from the sky<br />
<br />
Life seems to be so all over the place<br />
Never know what might lie under the mess<br />
Thinking of the big old world outside<br />
Makes my young heart feel so little inside<br />
<br />
I take a shower<br />
Not knowing the water has gotten colder<br />
As if I’m gonna get myself frozen<br />
And no one cares to even bother<br />
<br />
It’s way pass 12, I put on my clothes<br />
And realize, I shouldn’t have dressed up so soon<br />
My mind is here, but the thoughts are gone<br />
In the pouring rain on the afternoon<br />
<br />
Still, I could spend some time to say a little pray<br />
Never give a chance for life to lead me astray<br />
Hoping I would always be in the bliss of love<br />
Always be blessed by Heaven above<br />
<br />
Life seems to be so all over the place<br />
All good things don't seem to last these days<br />
Thinking of the crazy world outside<br />
Makes this young heart cry a little inside<br />
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What a feeling<br />
In this time I’m wasting<br />
I’ll keep myself sane<br />
As the rain keeps falling<br />
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This was written last year during one rainy afternoon of one of the lowest days I had. I had to make up my mind back then on one of those critical matters in my life. I poured this one out to get out of that sadness. Whatever is written in this piece is exactly everything I did at that time. How I wish things would be as simple as I imagine they would be ...Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-29038115654182920852010-11-01T01:25:00.000+08:002010-11-01T01:25:21.596+08:00A Painful Choice For Tomorrow's Fulfillment ...<div style="text-align: justify;">It's 1 in the morning where everything drowns in the darkness of the midnight. And it is very cold out there, I get chills all over me when I'm in the house. Currently in front of my sis's notebook because I had to send mine again to my technician. As always, nothing is perfect but I never would have thought it could get this imperfect. And guess what, I just got it 5 days ago and I had to send it to my technician because of one little problem that could get worse if untreated. What a day in the life of a boy just wanting to have his normal life back.</div><br />
<div style="text-align: justify;">Today, somebody close to me bugged me with a triggering question that I was not prepared to answer. What am I going to do after graduating? Well, I never thought of planning to find job or whatever things that a normal person would do after finishing my practicum. But I did decide on certain things. I just didn't know how to answer it and I decided to keep quite about it. But the things that I had decided upon before this are definitely taking a lot more sacrifice than what I have now. It is definitely a painful choice to make, but it's worth every bit of sacrifice that I'm going to do for tomorrow's fulfillment ... </div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-71700731417835289432010-10-29T22:10:00.000+08:002010-10-29T22:10:59.435+08:00Never Ending<div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Crimson flame,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Burning like a sun,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">A sign for me,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">It’s all been said and done.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Shining light,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Blinding my vision,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">But it’s all over now,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Finally, I can see my salvation.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Throw those lies away,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Live like there’s no end,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">For better or for worse,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">I live my life till the end.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">This is a song for the lonely,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Crying over never-ending sad stories,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Let love prevails once again,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Wash your tears away in the pouring rain.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">The truth,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">It’s like diamonds in the sky,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">They could be a million miles away,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">But, the lights shine bright.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Roses’ thorns,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">They’re nothing but hurting chains,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Keep yourself away from the raging lies,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Because, they’ll only cost you pain.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">“Happily ever after” won’t come,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Without “Once upon a time”<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Let your heart beats like a drum,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Because you know, it’s not a crime.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">This is the only way out of,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Your never-ending insanity,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Things you’ve never dreamed of,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">They’re all in your hands to see.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Things happen,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">There’s a reason why,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">A million decisions,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">It’s for you to decide.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Broken hearts,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Will heal once again,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Love will keep you out,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">Of the pain you’re in.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Handwriting';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
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</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">NOTE:</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">Wow. How long have I been keeping this one? This is actually an early writing of mine. A couple of years ago to be exact. Based on one of my friends' experience of having a very rough-filled moments with all bad things just wouldn't want to end. But, that person knew that it's all meant to be so that the person could get stronger with each pain. Definitely an old piece and I like keeping it just like this, not only to show the original thoughts of my teen years, but also growth of a person. And I'm growing day by day, so does the person I took the experience from to write this one ... </div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3852702857520734075.post-67710522508649256452010-10-29T15:46:00.002+08:002010-10-29T15:49:21.611+08:00Poetry is the Body, Emotions are the Souls ...<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"></span><br />
<div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">With such proud and arrogance, I would like to confess something here. I am not a good writer, even a good judge over things revolving around me. I am not Shakespeare, Emily Dickinson or whoever literary figure that you may be familiar with. But, all I can say is that, words are the only thing that I have when I cannot do or say something explicit and obvious. Whatever that I can do or say freely without constraint, it may just be the simplest that I can do. I learn that, they are things you can speak as freely as you want and they are things that can never work when you try doing them sometimes. When you don't see me ranting about somebody, helplessly trying to get help when I cannot do things or anything, you will find me looking for answers in my poetry. </span></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;">Poetry, especially the lyrical poetry is my obsession. Not only an obsession, it is my salvation apart from my God and my faith. I will write something about what I am emotionally connected to or even other things that I cannot do or say well. I am a very emotionally engaging human being and I can easily feel towards something that I am connected to. Whatever things that people have told me about, I would write most of them and keep them till the day I could tell these with such freedom. </span><br />
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</span></span></span></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">What I learn about writing thoughts and emotions through poetry is that, it can actually suppress my deepest, darkest emotions and mend them without ever making me go insane. They are my seductive trap and I will try as hard as I can to not show them. What I am showing is the true self of mine, but with subtleness. I am not showing it off too much that people would find reasons to hate me. I have a body and a soul that I'm living with every single day. And the same goes to my thoughts as well when I'm writing one. Poetry is the body, and emotions are the souls that it carries along with ...</span></span></div></div></div>Jung Hyo-Jaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12511282986530380521noreply@blogger.com0