Faithless

Your eyes are your diamonds
Sparkling like the stars, shining like the sun
The one I’ve always been dreaming to find
Your lips are my saviour
Chanting my name like words of a prayer
Saving me every time I lose my mind

You light me up, you’re perfect for me
I can touch the Heaven whenever you’re near

My world was like a shattered wonderland
Before you came around and held it in your hands
Suddenly, everything started to change, I thank you
But now, something is holding you down
‘Coz every time we’re trying to get a little serious
You’ll leave the bed and walk out of the room

They say you don’t believe in love
Maybe I should say some pray to God above

Tell me that you love me so
Tell me that you’re mine
Or you’re in this just for a joyride?
Did you mean those words you said?
Were they nothing but sweet lies?
Tell me, do you honestly believe in love?
‘Coz right now, I don’t think you do
Faithless

There were times this life had brought me to my knees
And you stood there trying to make me feel at ease
You’re my angel through those trying times
But now, I feel like something is holding you down
‘Coz every time the talks turn a little too serious
You’ll walk away and turn off the light

I refuse to believe you don’t believe in love
I pray to God above, hoping you would …

Tell me that you love me so
Tell me that you’re mine
Or you’re in this just for a joyride?
Did you mean those words you said?
Were they nothing but sweet lies?
Tell me, do you honestly believe in love?
‘Coz right now, I don’t think you do
Faithless

Should I keep on gambling my hopes away on you,
Even if these thoughts of mine of you speak the truth?

Tell me that you love me so
Tell me that you’re mine
Or have you been lying all this time?
Hope you’d confess to me now
Before we fall off this ground
Darling, are you truly into this love?
‘Coz to me now, you just seem to be
So faithless, faithless in love
You’re faithless



NOTE:

I wrote this one after listening to a song and as a way to tell myself that I shouldn't have this kind of feeling when loving somebody, the same goes to the other half. Being faithless is one of those things that I'm most afraid of. Because, I keep telling myself to have faith in everything that I do and every situation. But sometimes, it's way too easy to lose it when you're halfway there. I guess, that's what makes me human. I keep telling my friends to have faith when I don't exactly have that all the time. It takes a world of courage to love somebody or something and make it come true. I'll take note of my own advice from now and start learning to have it one day at a time.

May You Be There

Don’t want to sit and stare
I know I can go anywhere
‘Coz love will take me there

No use crying in silence
Tired of shedding tears
I wan to go to the ocean

Where I can put my heart to rest
This memory is meant to last.

Darling, I’ll remember you
You’re a million miles away
But, I can still feel you near
The ground might have consumed you
But I know, your soul is right there
Hoping I would come for you soon
So, may you be there
When my time comes, may you be there

I look at the clear sky
And I can see that shining light
Bet it must be your smile

In every corner, every space
I can only see your face
And it lights up this empty place

Losing you is more than I can take
But, this love will get me through the day

Darling, I’ll remember you
You’re a million miles away
But, I can still feel you near
The ground might have consumed you
But I know, your soul is right there
Hoping I would come for you soon
So, may you be there
When my time comes, may you be there

This life means nothing
Without you here
Can’t wait to fall apart
And meet you there
May you be there, don’t go anywhere.

Darling, I’ll remember you
You’re a million miles away
But, I can still feel you near
The ground might have consumed you
But I know, your soul is right there
Hoping I would come for you soon
So, may you be there
When my time comes, may you be there



NOTE:

I conceived the idea of writing this one after watching a very sad movie a couple of years ago. I was really moved by the idea of loving somebody so much and having a very genuine love that it stays with you forever and it will live on even when one person has to live and another has to die. And that was the theme of the what I was watching and just like that, it got me enamoured. I was touched and I quickly grab a piece of paper and my favourite pencil and wrote about my own story and thoughts about it the next day. When I finished writing it, it became so straight-forward and raw. I decided to leave it that way. I wish I could have something as genuine and as true as this someday.

Remember Today

I’m walking with my head up
Looking at those white clouds above
As minutes pass me by like a running river
I start to miss your faces

I turn to these flawed hands of mine
And they take me to a memory gone by
Where I used to feel afraid to reach out
Then absentmindedly, you took me in
You found me out

I close my eyes and say
“You were too kind back then”

I’ll remember today
As I’m walking away
I’ll remember today
As I’m counting my footsteps
Keep me in your heart, day and night
Write my name on the skylines
And I’ll be always on your mind

I look around our vacant class
I recall the first time we began
I looked at you, but you looked away
Seems like now, we’re more than best of friends

We felt love, we felt pain
We had joy, blues and heartbreaks
Under the sun, in the rain
We’d find glories, we would fail
Our story was one bittersweet fairytale
We’ve made it through
We’re unbreakable, it’s true

I put my hands on my chest and say
“I can never find this anywhere”

I’ll remember today
As our ending begins
I’ll remember today
As I wish good times don’t end
Keep me in your heart, day and night
Write my name on the skylines
And I’ll be always on your mind

We hug each other tight
We shake hands and say goodbye
As best wishes fill the air
I burn all pains and hurts to ashes
And say a little pray
Hope we’ll meet again one day

We’ll remember today
As we turn away and leave
You and this place
‘Till the day I rest in peace
If you ever find yourself missing me
Think of me and these words day and night
Keep me in your heart
And you’ll see your name on the skylines
You’ll be always on my mind.



NOTE:

A very nostalgic piece indeed. I wrote this one a few nights before my big final exam of my final semester before going for my practicum earlier this year. As I was studying and reflecting the things we all have done together for the last 3-4 years, and as my classmates were posting their goodbyes on Facebook, Twitter and all, I was really driven to write this. It was quite an easy moment writing this one down as all the memories and ideas were flashing on my mind together and the words just came smoothly. I dare to say, this is one of the sincerest piece that I have written. This was never meant to be a farewell kind of message. It was more like keeping all the memories we had made together safe in our minds and ushering the reality that we were going to face as we got nearer to the end. It's touching and moving, but also inspiring at the same time. 

There You Go

Look for the answers
If you’re lost in your own confusion
Glory of the day comes with a thousand sacrifices
Then, the universe would listen to your atonement

Reach out for the light
If you’re close to losing your faith
Never turn your back even just for once
It might just be your only saving grace

There you go, all the doors have open up for you
A pray from the heart to God would pull you through
When insignificance comes around and holds you down
You know it’s time for you to let it go

Look for solutions
If you ever lose your sense of direction
A single path taken reveals another million
You’re bound to make your choice of decision

Come to me
If you ever feel like giving up
I’m your second chance, forever be by your side
To live a life worth the greatest of fights

There you go, the angels sing in the sky for you
So, bare your soul and change to someone new
When your naked eyes are fooling you around
Hold on tight those truths you’ve kept inside

Run for shelter
If the rain clouds come to bother you again
But, your heart seems to know so much better
That the downpour could wash away your hurting pain

There you go, all the doors have open up for you
A pray from the heart to God would pull you through
When insignificance comes around and holds you down
You know it’s time for you to let it go




NOTE:

Another new post (although not exactly new). There comes a time when you will just sit on a couch reflecting on things and trying to see those things in a whole new different dimension. And that's what happened when I wrote this one 2 years ago (when I was 20 years old). I sat alone at my college's cafe and somehow, the ideas to write this one came to mind. This was one of those writing which I had deep thoughts about and I really reflected all the things that I had done, was doing and would be doing in the future. It made me believe that I can get through whatever as long as I have strength and faith inside me. And that's what I hoped while I was writing this one.

Come What May

Summer heat
Comes around with the wind
And it whispers gently to my ears
As the days
Pass me by like a river
Flowing with memories of all these years

I realize good dreams have gone
It’s quite a lost, but I’m moving on

I’m walking away
There’s nothing more to say
Don’t want to shed anymore tears away
I’ll live for another day
This is my life
Never been perfect
I should have known better this love won’t go anywhere
Nevermore, I am waiting for your hands, so come what may

I don’t need your sorry
Won’t buy all your stories
You’re running out of chances now
Lose control
This anger has taken its toll
And soon, it burns everything to the ground

The blue sky turns grey for the two of us
It’s going to rain soon, so let’s just …

Let’s just walk away
There’s nothing left to say
Don’t want to shed anymore tears away
We’ll live for another day
Lead a new life
Though it won’t be perfect
We should have known better this love won’t go anywhere
Nevermore, I am waiting for your hands, so come what may

We’re never really meant to be
I’m losing all my hopes, and so are we
I’m not the one you needed
Leave and be happy

‘Cause this bliss is going to end
As I count 1 to 10
This love is truly ending
And these words don’t mean a thing
So, go on with your life
You’re gonna be perfect
Though these wounds heal, the scars stay in my heart anyway
Don’t ever wish we’ll be holding hands again
So, come what may



NOTE:
My first post in almost a year already. Although this one is not particularly new, I just want to share this one here, reflecting the sunny season of the year that is so well-known for its fiery love and endless separations. I wrote this one when I was 20 years old and it was about a friend of mine who had found love but it had to end a little bit too soon for him. I was inspired to write this one after listening to him and listening to one my favourite songs of Taylor Swift back then. Love is divine, but if both persons are just not meant to be, you've got to move on and reflect on what has happened. It only makes you stronger. 

Fireworks

That cold night came with so much glitter
Lighting up the perfect, navy blue sky
We were a few miles away from town
But, we knew there’s a celebration coming down

We took a car and drove away
As fast as we could, so we wouldn’t be late
But, we got there just in time to watch
The most beautiful night we’d ever had

Silence all around
10 to 1, we started to count

I looked at you
You’re too caught up in the moment
With a smile on your face
Enraptured by those fireworks
Bursting in the sky
And across the space
I took a chance and told you I love you
And that was the last thing I’d ever said to you

That cold night comes around again tonight
Can’t believe it’s been a year without you by my side
As I drive away, I wonder where you are tonight
Would you be there if I called you out this time?

Lovers, walking down every corner of the streets
Away from the world, what matters is here
Looking back at those days we used to be in love
I’ve got teary-eyed, I just can’t hold back these tears

It’s happening all over again
10 to 1, but everything remains unchanged

And I think of you
In the middle of the crowd
I fake a smile on my face
As I’m looking at the fireworks
My mind is filled with thoughts of you
In every space
Wish you were here to see me crying
I don’t want anything else
‘Coz it’s you I’m missing

Goodbyes fill the air
Ready to call it a day
All good things will come to end
But, hurts and pain are here to stay

I pray for you
As I’m closing another chapter of my life
Without a smile on my face
Then, the fireworks stop
I guess I have to go now
I’m heading back to my place
So, I take this chance to forgive you
But, I’d never know if I could ever forget you




P/S:
The second one from a pair of work that I did after listening to a song. The first one was One Less Pair of Hearts. Another theme that goes on in that song is about how fireworks triggers love memories with that person, signifies the end of a relationship and paves a way to move on. Wrote this exactly after the first one. And I actually was writing this with a melody in mind. The story might just be an exaggeration. But the persona I took the inspiration to write this from is real and that person is a dear friend of mine ...

World of Wonders

Leave your bed cold now, sweet child
Open up your beautiful eyes
Wake up from your never-ending dream
The light of a new world is waiting

Don’t be afraid and whimper, sweet child
Open up your innocent heart wide
It’s time for you to look deep inside
In your soul you’ll find meaning, it’s not a lie

Take that first step and you realize
It’s a world of wonders outside
Full of things that you’ve never seen
And places you’ve never been

My sweet child
Waiting for the life to begin
Let your tears run dry
Make your way to a new beginning

Never feel a little too late to learn
There will always be a room for improvement
Evil whispers everywhere, lingering on your ears
Remember, God is ever watching over your shoulders

Growing up is a hard thing to do, love
So, better look on the brighter side
Mother will save you from falling out of love
Father’s hands will lift you up high ‘till you reach the sky

Hurricane winds and raging thunderstorm
Come crashing down on your way back home
Try to find a perfect shelter along the way
So, you’ll be coming back home safe from harm

My sweet child
Taking off on a journey
Never ever lose your sight
Keep praying wherever you may be

Don’t dwell on yesterday
If it ever makes you sad
Senseless fear won’t get you anywhere
Nothing’s coming in your way
Don’t worry, it’s gonna be okay
You know love will always take you there

My sweet child
Heaven above is ever forgiving
Mistakes are meant to be learnt
Live a life worth a thousand years of living



P/S:
Something that I wrote a year ago. A very simple message for the youngsters who will take over the future when we've got older ...