Here We Are

Remember
Those days when we used to play around
With false hopes and empty dreams
Remember
We’re close to falling off the ground
And drowned ourselves in misery
We lost our guiding light so many times along the way
Never thought after all that we’d been through
We would ever find it again

Here we are
Together as one
Wrapping our sweet thoughts around us
Through the day and through the night
You’ll be here beside me
Forever ad always, you’re my one and only

Still remember
We used to sing those love songs
And we talked about those silly things
That you would be the queen
And I would be the king
In the imaginary castle that we built
Then, we had ups and downs and we both went away chasing dreams
Never thought after all these years
We would find ourselves loving each other once again

Here we are
Together again
Looking back at our bittersweet past
Can’t help but to cry
Knowing you’ll be by my side
Now I realize that we’re just meant to last

True love is here to stay
Happiness, whispering in the air
What more could I ask for?
I can never find another you anywhere
Now, let’s live and die
Together in the light

Here we are
Looking at each other
As we wrap ourselves around the promises
"Happily ever after” is right in front of us
Don’t ever think this is a fairytale
Just believe in what I say
Forever and always, we’ll stay this way




P/S:
Since November this year a month full of weddings and heartbreaks, might as well I post this one that I wrote a year ago. Wrote this with a picture of a pair of hearts reminiscing good old bittersweet days before walking down the isle and lead a new life ahead. Even if heartbreaks are your company, it's good to take some time and reminisce all good times you had previously before you head on to another new beginning. ^o^ And for those who will be walking down the isle, I sincerely wish you all the best be happy...

One Less Pair of Hearts

It was yesterday
When you told me we would go out and play
Today
I remembered it well
That you wanted to take me to that place
Where the night would never end

We would walk down the street where you used to see
Those dreams of love and bliss live eternally

Now, I’m here
Looking at those people walking hand in hand
Looking at the sky full of stars at night
Now, I’m here
Putting all hopes and fears in this one chance
But you’re nowhere to be found
I can see they’re sitting around, next to each other
Waiting for the fireworks to start
Bet they won’t ever realize
There’s still one less pair of hearts.

Guess it’s true
They say all your prays will be answered
Today
And nothing can make you cry tonight
It makes me wonder
“Could these tears of mine dry this time?”

‘Coz I’m hoping you would wash them all away
And I would say a pray with every step we’d take

Now, I’m here
Looking at those people walking hand in hand
Looking at the sky full of stars at night
Now, I’m here
Putting all hopes and fears in this one chance
But you’re nowhere to be found
I can see they’re sitting around, next to each other
Waiting for the fireworks to start
Bet they won’t ever realize
There’s still one less pair of hearts.

I could make my way back home right now
And just pretend you’ve never promised me anything
I could just be looking around, wasting this time away
But I don’t know why I’m still waiting

And now I’m here
Looking at those people walking side by side
Under the sky full of stars tonight
But I’m in tears
Knowing I’ve been holding on to just empty words
‘Coz you’re nowhere to be found
The moment they begin to lie down on the grass
Fireworks tear the silence all apart
Guess they will never know
I’m that one less pair of hearts



P/S:
Wrote this a year ago after listening to a Japanese song. In fact, this is one of a pair of original writings that I wrote based on that song. I couldn't help but to feel connected with the song. So, I wrote this one, based on the message it conveyed and a little bit of from a friend's experience, before calling it a day. I know very well how difficult it is to hold on to empty words and empty love ...

Rain on the Afternoon

I wake myself up
From that long, dreamless night
A sleep that seemed so restless
Though I’d turned off the light

I wake myself up
To the sound of teardrops falling on the roof
Absent-mindedly looking out my window
To find out it’s raining on the afternoon

People on the roadside turn away and run
As the grey clouds sail away under the sun
I’m sitting on my bed watching time flies by
So fast like these falling raindrops from the sky

Life seems to be so all over the place
Never know what might lie under the mess
Thinking of the big old world outside
Makes my young heart feel so little inside

I take a shower
Not knowing the water has gotten colder
As if I’m gonna get myself frozen
And no one cares to even bother

It’s way pass 12, I put on my clothes
And realize, I shouldn’t have dressed up so soon
My mind is here, but the thoughts are gone
In the pouring rain on the afternoon

Still, I could spend some time to say a little pray
Never give a chance for life to lead me astray
Hoping I would always be in the bliss of love
Always be blessed by Heaven above

Life seems to be so all over the place
All good things don't seem to last these days
Thinking of the crazy world outside
Makes this young heart cry a little inside

What a feeling
In this time I’m wasting
I’ll keep myself sane
As the rain keeps falling




P/S:
This was written last year during one rainy afternoon of one of the lowest days I had. I had to make up my mind back then on one of those critical matters in my life. I poured this one out to get out of that sadness. Whatever is written in this piece is exactly everything I did at that time. How I wish things would be as simple as I imagine they would be ...

A Painful Choice For Tomorrow's Fulfillment ...

It's 1 in the morning where everything drowns in the darkness of the midnight. And it is very cold out there, I get chills all over me when I'm in the house. Currently in front of my sis's notebook because I had to send mine again to my technician. As always, nothing is perfect but I never would have thought it could get this imperfect. And guess what, I just got it 5 days ago and I had to send it to my technician because of one little problem that could get worse if untreated. What a day in the life of a boy just wanting to have his normal life back.

Today, somebody close to me bugged me with a triggering question that I was not prepared to answer. What am I going to do after graduating? Well, I never thought of planning to find job or whatever things that a normal person would do after finishing my practicum. But I did decide on certain things. I just didn't know how to answer it and I decided to keep quite about it. But the things that I had decided upon before this are definitely taking a lot more sacrifice than what I have now. It is definitely a painful choice to make, but it's worth every bit of sacrifice that I'm going to do for tomorrow's fulfillment ...

Never Ending

Crimson flame,

Burning like a sun,

A sign for me,

It’s all been said and done.

Shining light,

Blinding my vision,

But it’s all over now,

Finally, I can see my salvation.

Throw those lies away,

Live like there’s no end,

For better or for worse,

I live my life till the end.

This is a song for the lonely,

Crying over never-ending sad stories,

Let love prevails once again,

Wash your tears away in the pouring rain.

The truth,

It’s like diamonds in the sky,

They could be a million miles away,

But, the lights shine bright.

Roses’ thorns,

They’re nothing but hurting chains,

Keep yourself away from the raging lies,

Because, they’ll only cost you pain.

“Happily ever after” won’t come,

Without “Once upon a time”

Let your heart beats like a drum,

Because you know, it’s not a crime.

This is the only way out of,

Your never-ending insanity,

Things you’ve never dreamed of,

They’re all in your hands to see.

Things happen,

There’s a reason why,

A million decisions,

It’s for you to decide.

Broken hearts,

Will heal once again,

Love will keep you out,

Of the pain you’re in.

NOTE:

Wow. How long have I been keeping this one? This is actually an early writing of mine. A couple of years ago to be exact. Based on one of my friends' experience of having a very rough-filled moments with all bad things just wouldn't want to end. But, that person knew that it's all meant to be so that the person could get stronger with each pain. Definitely an old piece and I like keeping it just like this, not only to show the original thoughts of my teen years, but also growth of a person. And I'm growing day by day, so does the person I took the experience from to write this one ... 

Poetry is the Body, Emotions are the Souls ...

With such proud and arrogance, I would like to confess something here. I am not a good writer, even a good judge over things revolving around me. I am not Shakespeare, Emily Dickinson or whoever literary figure that you may be familiar with. But, all I can say is that, words are the only thing that I have when I cannot do or say something explicit and obvious. Whatever that I can do or say freely without constraint, it may just be the simplest that I can do. I learn that, they are things you can speak as freely as you want and they are things that can never work when you try doing them sometimes. When you don't see me ranting about somebody, helplessly trying to get help when I cannot do things or anything, you will find me looking for answers in my poetry. 

Poetry, especially the lyrical poetry is my obsession. Not only an obsession, it is my salvation apart from my God and my faith. I will write something about what I am emotionally connected to or even other things that I cannot do or say well. I am a very emotionally engaging human being and I can easily feel towards something that I am connected to. Whatever things that people have told me about, I would write most of them and keep them till the day I could tell these with such freedom. 

What I learn about writing thoughts and emotions through poetry is that, it can actually suppress my deepest, darkest emotions and mend them without ever making me go insane. They are my seductive trap and I will try as hard as I can to not show them. What I am showing is the true self of mine, but with subtleness. I am not showing it off too much that people would find reasons to hate me. I have a body and a soul that I'm living with every single day. And the same goes to my thoughts as well when I'm writing one. Poetry is the body, and emotions are the souls that it carries along with ...

I Was Enchanted ...

How this one person can speak my mind out like it's nothing, I'm not too sure about that. Something magical is definitely in the air when she speaks, and when she does, I cannot stop relating myself to what is being said. Yesterday, I managed to download an album before heading to my hometown. It took me a night to listen to every single song in the album because I was listening in my MP3 player while folding up staff and packing up everything. A favorite singer of mine, specifically, a favorite songwriter of mine. And this person didn't disappoint. I was into every single song in the album not because of they're new and great (they are a great piece of musical craftsmanship anyway). It's that, I can actually relate every single one of them to what is currently going on in my life, especially for the past few rough weeks that I had. I will not hesitate to admit that I cried listening to one of the song in the album. The song let me know something very important. You can plan everything all you want, even emotions that you want to feel. But, interventions will just want to halt some of them and you will have to start all over again. I kept repeating the song all over again till the moment I took my last steps before going home this morning. I was enchanted, and I still am now ...