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Long Gone Last Innocence ~ Fateful Haunting Reminiscence

The Point of It All ...

Doing a bit of self-reflection as I'm here sitting in my favourite cafe with my notebook to look upon. As soon as I woke up, I just realized that it's weekend and I didn't really have an idea what to do. I took my shower, got dressed and woke up out my room and out of my house. And I'm here, onlining as if I got nothing else to do. I still have a lot of work to do. But I decided not long ago that this weekend will be away-from-work day. Just for a while so that I can take a breath of fresh air and figure out what to do next with ease. I've been so out of control and so machine-like. There's no stopping for me these last few weeks. So, I really want this weekend to just work. It's not really going to be all away-from-work weekend totally. I decided to have this weekend for myself just so that I could make use of the time to figure out and finish my own piling work. And I managed to finish one. There's more to go. So the point of it all, I'm finally able to spend some time for myself and do my own thing.

If We Don't Ever Forgive ...

What would ones do, or should I put it like this ... what should ones feel when they don't want to forgive? Sometimes, I really wonder about this whole thing. Forgiveness, for me is a huge thing. But I don't really give my forgiveness away without common sense. There are things that are meant to be forgiven and they aren't. And I choose to live that way as that is one of the things that I believe in in this life. It is very amazing to know that there are very magnificent people who have pure hearts that can forgive and forget. Almost prophet-like. And I'm somewhat amazed by these act of humanity. There's a way that people can walk on to when it comes to searching for forgiveness. And it will always there for those who sincerely wants to forgive and be forgiven. I used to be so heartless. But at this time of age, I can't afford to live that way anymore. It's a waste of time. I learn that life won't ever be as bliss as we could ever wish it would be no matter how far you would go to feel happy .... if we don't ever forgive ...