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Counting The Days

I'm actually counting the days until my upcoming birthday. And out of so many questions echoing in mind right now, the question that makes me think is that, what to expect? Because I don't really have any idea what to. Time's moving so fast, I can hardly catch up with things and I bet there's more to come. Time's moving so fast and the hope of having a good celebration, I guess I may have to forget it and pass it on to next year or years after. I still can't find a way to escape my sadness tho. I've been so down lately, since last month and I don't know what caused me to feel this way. It's stupid to say the least. And counting the days until birthday won't do me a single favor whatsoever. I'm currently in an on-going therapy, keep writing poetry to move my mind away from things for a while. In a week or so, I'm leaving my home to start a new session. So I need to recover and get myself on the right track again. And surprisingly, I can't wait to get back and do all sort of things on my own. Talking about writing songs just now, I'm currently in the midst of writing a very reflective song about the fear of being left behind, being alone, like I'm feeling right now, and you realize the feelings don't want to go away. You have done pretty much, everything to save what's left and in the end, it's almost the same as you didn't do anything in the first place. And you wonder to yourself, are you going to be like this, even until the days of you growing old later on, you'll be feeling like this and no one would want to save you and hold your hands, take you out from everything that has saddened you? It's a very reflective song, and it conjures everything that lingers in every corners of my mind right now. I'll try to finish this before the day of my birthday comes ...


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